Ramblings

There's so much happening around me and the world in general. Can't believe the first month of the new year is almost at an end. Well, this week has also been a short one due to the Australia Day long weekend and Friday being a day off. Have got absolutely nothing planned for this long weekend since my hubby's working plus I don't really feel like socialising with my girlfriends. Over the years, I have actually become a very quiet and a very 'picky' person when making plans with friends. I remember when I was 18, which feels like a lifetime ago!I was able to have big night out's and go clubbing. I used to drink(I've still kept that going) and dance till the wee hours into the morning,doing all sorts of antics with my friends and still waking up fresh as a cucmber the next day. But now, things have changed. I need to make plans well in advance and check dates for availability and then go to dinners. I haven't actually been on a great night out dancing in a really long,long time!But, this does not mean that I am whingeing about it.I am just trying to comprehend the changes that occur in life as one grows,ages,matures,moves on,mellows down or whatever else it may be seen as.

Today is also my dad's birthday and there's nothing special planned for today.I've just bought a medium-sized Carrot Cake which we're going to take to my parents house tonight after work. Everyone's working till late tonight including my dad. Also,knowing full well how my dad isn't big on such occasions. I know that he would like his birthday to be like any other day. Quite the opposite of how I think of my own birthday. Ever since I was a little girl, I've always wanted something "sepcial'happening on my birthday. I am not sure what it is that has ingrained in my mind that Birthdays are in no way 'normal' or 'ordinary'. And apart from being showered with gifts, one is meant to feel 'special' all day long like a princess or a prince.I recently recall my last birthday,which was my first b'day spent with my husband. I don't know why I thought it to be such a big deal. I mean turning 26 was hardly a 'milestone' and far from being a big number birthday. I expected the whole shebang and thanks to my husband who did the best he could to live up to all my expectations for that day. Some of the special treatments included-Breakfast in bed, drop & pick up frm work followed by Dinner at one of the nicest restaurants in the city with spectacular views. My husband decided to celebrate my b'day from 12 am onwards(obviously he knew he had expecations to live up to). I was driven to my parent's house straight after work on the 19th for dinner and then the Cake cutting took place right after midnight with all my loved ones present- my parents,my husband and my cousin. It was special in every way that I could imagine and I was quickly given a Tiffany's bracelet by my husband as soon as the cake was cut and the b'day song sung.
I got everyone's attention all of next day(on my actual b'day) and had e-mail b'day messages and a few texts from some close friends. I even had one of close girlfriends send me b'day wishes in the mail, the old fashioned way which I thought was sweet.
In spite of having a special b'day with my darling husband. This happened after our return from the swanky restaurant-

A:" Let's call mummy/papa, they have been wanting to talk to you".
Me:"um..I already talked to them, they were the first ones to call to wish me"
A:"Yes, but they've been wanting to talk to you longer".
Me:"No, I want to spend time alone with you..just another a hour till it's my birthday".
A:"Oh come on, we've had a lovely dinner/day.We can speak to mamma/papa for sometime now".

I just walk out of the room while my husband asks his parents to come online.

They come on and not sure what happened to me but I just said out loud indicating to my hubby that today is my day and that it wasn't fair.But obviously, I said in it a completely different tone and voice for the life of me, I cannot fathom what got into me then.And the rest that followed after as they say 'is history'. And we ended up having an argument and with me shedding a few tears(in spite of my husband's effort to make my b'day as special as possible).